Friday, February 26, 2010

hulalala~

kemaren aku menggodek2 laptop aku yg usienya berzaman nie. pastu aku bersua muka dgn koleksi album sepanjang zaman yg sangat membangkitkan emosi. aku go tru sme pix, aku gelak sorg2. klu aku tgk ramai2 ngan membe2, mesti ktorg gelak same2. nnt la aku upload lg yeh. sb hr nie aku da isytiharkan hr cuti utk sebarang kegiatan kecuali makan. aku nk tidur je. n aktvt tmbhn seperti mandi sb nk kua cr makan. aku nk berusehe tdo lg wpun rasenye da berbelas jam aku tido. org tamak selalu untung. aku tamak halobe dlm bab tdo. yg penting dpt tdo. sekian, aku nk smbg tdo. hulalala~

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

LORONG ITU

lorong itu,
kecil, sempit dan suram.
dindingnya penuh kulapuk.
tanahnya becek, paritnya tersumbat.
hawanya pengap, aromanya hapak.

lorong itu,
lipas, lipan dan tikus.
berteman, berlarian mencari makanan.
sampah sarap memenuhi tanahnya yang senantiasa lembab.
kotoran haiwan dan manusia di mana-mana.

lorong sekecil itu,
lorong sesempit itu,
lorong sesuram itu,
lorong sehapak itu,
di huni oleh seorang ibu dan tiga anaknya.
berteman bersama serangga.
berkongsi makanan bersama haiwan.
bertumpang teduh dari panas dan hujan.
di balik dinding yang berkulapuk dan parit yang tersumbat.

si bawah atap genting, di bawah atap zink.
kita duduk menonton televisyen.
kita makan hidangan yang enak.
kita berbaring di atas tilam yang empuk.
kita berteman bersama kucing yang comel dan jinak.

kita masih di bumi yang sama.
bumi Tuhan yang hijau dengan pohon dan dedaunan.
bumi Tuhan yang biru dangan lautan.
bumi Tuhan yang putih dengan langit dan awan.

kita masih manusia.
punya sepasang kaki dan tangan.
punya wajah yang membezakan laki-laki dan perempuan.
punya rambut yang menjadikan kita ras dan keturunan.

hulurkan tangan, ringankan beban.
bantuan kita amat diperlukan.
seorang ibu dan 3 anaknya masih tetap di lorong itu....

p/s: tangan yang memberi lebih baik dari yang menerima. hidup ibarat putaran roda. ikhlaskan hati, sucikan diri. kita masih sama2 manusia.

aR. aI. eN. Dee. Yu. !!!

rindu mata kamu yg redup macam pokok getah.
rindu senyuman kamu yg manis macam white coklat extra sugar.
rindu kamu sgt!

p/s: buat mase ni tu je yg di rindui. pasni nk rindu mende laen pulak!

Monday, February 22, 2010

glad!

i was totally fully occupied with work for the last 2 weeks. i don't have enough time to be spend with friends, i skipped my meals, i cut my sleeping hours and exhausted of keeping my daily routine done.

but i learned a lot. i learned from my patients. the learning issue that u can't get from the text book. the moral value that u can't surf on the net. the privillages of having family members. family that always be there for u no matter what.

mr.S had been amputated. he lost his limbs. both of them. and the wounds are still fresh. i can see the flesh, the bones and the arteries. because of the electrical burned, he was lying on the bad. and has to do so for the rest of his life. there, his wife was stand still. with a lot of hopes. she knew his husband cannot has his feet back, but she was praying he will survive. love had widened my eyes. love made me feel full.

miss.B got a tumor on her femur. she was so charming. i talked to her a day before she went to the operation room. to save her life, the team of doctors had decided to remove the tumor. pity her, a technical problem had occur during the process. an artery had been mistaken cut by the doctor. she lost a lot of blood. she was really pale and the blood pressure was drastically decreased. she needs blood. and hers was B. only 6% of human race got that. and the blood bank was out of stock. her family members gathered. each of them gave a pack of blood. but it wasn't enough. she needs more. so they kept on searching for others. and they succeeded. miss.B got enough blood, and her spirit will make her wake up from the comatous.

they have their own family members. i got mine too. and i spend the last weekends with my everdearest parents and my loving siblings. it was worth to spend a little time with them, and it pays all the tiredness for the whole month. i just can't wait to rejoin the family after 5 years away of staying in a boarding school, a year of matriculation, and 6 years of living abroad all my self alone completing my degree. and i still counting for the days to come....


p/s: i was not o close with the fam during my teenage age. but as a grown up, i knew fam is the most important thing in life. u don't like your fam, it means u hate your life. believe me, they complete you!

Monday, February 08, 2010

love love love

am loving ma new layout. thank you emma! mwahhhhhhhhhhh!